Journal 12/16/10

I would paint a beautiful magical piece with unicorns breathing fire while gliding over a nuclear explosion blowing up men in gas masks, as they smoke cigarettes, surrounding a rising phoenix bursting forth from the firey depths of planet Earth's abyss amongst the darkness of the universe's eternal night.

I think it'll be a hit. I'll wear a beret.

Journal 12/6/10

If I had one wish today it would be that my parents were rich. I know money can't buy you happiness but it really can buy you things that will make you happy. Good by association. I want to pursue a career in makeup but that is a luxury career, an unrealistic and improbable career to go after without either assurance of immediate income or assurance of a large income to fallback upon if things fall through.

Sigh. I'm going to find a way to get my cosmetology license before I graduate high school.

Journal 12/2/10

Okay, so I want to look at this in a legal standpoint. While I do not in anyway condone the practice of shoving religion down people's throats (I'm agnostic). This article is very much correct. This student does have the right to mention her faith as much as she'd like in her speech, HOWEVER it is not very considerate of her to ignore the idea that her audience might be filled with people of multiple faiths. I also wonder if this case would have been won if the student had muslim and wanted to discuss the joys of Allah and her path in discovering Muhammad. I feel like it is easy for christian organizations to jump all over the free speech card, but then get irked when other faiths want to mention their own positions. What if the girl had been gay and wanted to mention her struggles in her speech with being that way? What about if she had been a follower of a pagan religion? Then what?

Sometimes living in the Bible Belt really rubs me the wrong way. I all too often feel like the "oppressed" Christians like to victimize themselves and then tape the mouths of everyone else.

Journal 11/30/10

In the movie of my life, Jake Baker would play me. I require a certain level of a dynamics brought to the role in order for the actor to properly portray me. This is why I can only trust Jaker with the role. Only he can bring the drama, the action, and the recherche of my lifestyle to the big screen.

SAMANTHA JARRELL:THE MOVIE
Starring Jake Baker as Samantha
With Emma Watson as Samantha's husband

11/19/10

For my one week break I am looking forward running. LOTS OF RUNNING. I am going to up my mileage a lot during the break. I'm at 8 miles, but I need to get higher up there. I'll make it. Its just going to take some time, which is nice about having all this free time during the break to focus on that.
I'm also really looking forward to listening to Christmas music with my mom. We have a bunch of old Christmas CDs that we listen to every year. Its awesome. We sing and dance around the house, and just have a really good time. I've already posted my Christmas List on the fridge for my parents and extended family to view on Thanksgiving.

I'm excited. I'll also be getting some good sleep.

Journal 11/15/10

If I coud live in one climate all my life, it would most definitely be a tropical climate. I love warm weather. I actually feel like being outside and doing things when the weather is warmer. So why not have good weather year round?

I NEED THE WARM WEATHER.

Journal 11/11/10

I would put a video in a time capsule to be opened in the future. I mean, we're in broadcast. We film videos. We edit videos. It would probably a video containing footage of life in this time period. I would also include messages about what I hope the future is like and advice for the future people based on what is going on now, and what mistakes I hope they could avoid.

Now I really want to make like a broadcast or Liberty time capsule.

Journal 11/9/10

I personally enjoy standard time more than daylight savings time. It gets dark way too fast during daylight savings time. It makes me really sleepy and not want to run. I don't like that. I want to run. I don't like feeling too cold and lethargic for running.

Daylight savings time makes me blah.

Journal 11/3/10

My greatest challenge lately has been finding happiness. I have been very caught up in my own self-critical thoughts that I can't remember what it means to just enjoy something. I need to take a step back, but I feel guilty for doing that. Sometimes, I think I work myself into the ground with everything that I put myself through, and at the end of the day, I still want more. I feel so undeserving of anything good most times.

I need a good run, a bath, a book, and my bed.

Journal 11/1/10

I am neither an optimist or a pessimist. I like to think of myself as a realist. It is great to have hope and to go for your dreams, but do not live in fantasy. Think about the actual likelihood of events, consider the repercussions of your actions, and remember that there are other people out there who want exactly what you want, and just as badly.

It isn't about seeing the glass half full or half empty, it is about knowing why the glass is there in the first place.

Journal 11/1/10

I completely believe in the idea that aliens could be out there. I mean, it is ridiculous to assume that in a universe that expands beyond our ability to find the end of it, that we would be the only living creatures. Humans have a nasty habit of glorifying their own existence and placing themselves on a pedestal. We are not that smart. There are so many secrets about the universe that we have not figured out and cannot even comprehend.

Chances are, to somebody, we're the aliens

Journal 10/26/10

When I'm old and gray, I'll remember running around crazily to get interviews for broadcast. I'll remember arguing tooth and nail with those kids from other debate teams. I'll remember holding a basin for that guy in the ER while he threw up. Yeah. I'm going to remember some very crazy experiences.

The best ones will involve RHTV.

Journal 10/22/10

Okay, so today I am going to outline what exactly has happened to me recently.

I had a mental breakdown/panic attack in my car yesterday. I have been so high strung lately that it is ridiculous. I haven't had a real night of sleep for over a week. I almost didn't come to school today. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I think I'm balancing too many things at once. I didn't cry in my car though. Not because I didn't want to, or because I thought I should be happier or something like that. I didn't cry because I didn't have time. Isn't that sad? I have too much to do to even feel anything. Today I am all smiles though. Smile. Smile. Smile. Smile. Smile. Smile. Happy. Happy. Happy. Happy. Happy. Happy. FAKE. FAKE.FAKE.FAKE.FAKE.FAKE.

I am drained.

Journal 10/20/10

Look. Everyone is going to have different views. That is just a given. Everyone is entitled to their beliefs and feelings about things, but everyone should also respect each other's right to different views. Especially in leu of recent events, people have got to try understanding each other, and being...as much as kills me...nice. While working hard.

Ew.

Journal 10/18/10

If I could have any job in the media it would be an anchor. I love anchoring. I pretty much am MADE for anchoring. I have a pretty face, I'm good at speaking, and I'm adorable. Who wouldn't want me as their anchor? Brian Williams and I are like the same person...except I've got female parts.

One day the introduction will go: This is MSNBC with Samantha Jarrell

Journal 10/13/10

To be comfortable in your own skin means to be okay with being who you are. Few people are capable of this seemingly frightening feat. Even I take lapses in my ability to be my 100 percent Sami self. We as humans are even asked to suppress who we are at times. It sucks, not being able to just be yourself, but people get quiet, get scared, and get told not to be themselves.

I generally am always myself though.

Journal 9/28/10

"To Work Hard and Be Nice" means to give it your all with class.
Not that I'm always very concerned with either. It sounds so kiddish, that phrase. We aren't in kindergarden. I preferred "Learning Honor Success...LHS", more so.

Journal 10/6/10

Entertainment can be falsified. The news is the truth. Things HAVE to be distinguishable. If people get the two mixed up, then they risk getting facts mixed up with rumors or ideas.

People are foolish when they forget the difference between news and entertainment.

Journal 10/4/10

If I had to choose a time period it would probably be the one we are currently in. Sure it is isn't perfect but no time in history ever was. If I go back too much further in time, I'll have zero rights as a female and that really doesn't fly. I need to be able to get loud and get my point across. No other time period is so accepting of this.

I love the 40s and 50s....but no.

Journal 9/30/10

THE RACE FOR GOVERNOR OF TEXAS!!!
So the other day, Washington called my house. My parents didn't want to answer but I did.
They were calling to do a phone poll on voter's opinions on who they would vote on for Governor and on important issues. Needless to say, I decided to, in the interest of performing a civic duty that my parents were planning to neglect, sidestep my status as too young to vote, and let them know how I felt.

I believe I've done the nation a service or two, by helping the government understand the way it's people feel.

Blog 9/24/10

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I cried today in the math hall bathroom. I want to go home.

Blog 9/22/10

Usually when I’m stressed I go for a good run and then I take a nice long bath. It’s nice to just lie there and let your muscles relax after running off all the worry. Another great addition to this procedure is to add in reading a good book while chilling in the bath.

Its weird that this is today's topic and stress is all that I've been feeling lately.

Blog 9/20/10

Sue Yates,
Thank you soooo much for letting me join your running group! Everyone is super friendly and the distance is perfect. I hope your 24hr run went well on Saturday. Just be sure you rest up a lot this week. I am really thankful for all the support and advice everyone has given me. It’s all really helpful, and I think I’ll be much more prepared for my half-marathon thanks to you all.

Blog 9/16/10

I see myself using my funds from practicing nursing, or physician assisting, to buy my own location for a store. I will make my own Vegetarian/Vegan general store. Then, in 5 more years when my success has gone through the roof, I’m going to big with the entire thing and I will create the biggest cruelty free grocery chain. We’ll have prices better than Walmart with none of the fluffy bunny pain! Then, I will do freelance makeup artistry on the weekends.

Man, I need a boyfriend.

Journal 9/14/10

My passion is what defines me most. There are a million things that I want and a million more that I will find that I want. I'm very selfish in the sense that I have the goal of getting what I want, and I will go for that goal. However, without that passion and that desire to go after things, I would not be me.

I have to be passionate. I can't imagine not feeling strongly about the things I love.

Journal 9/10/10

So I'm really glad this week is done.

I recently decided that I am going to one day own my own Vegetarian/Vegan General Store. It will be the largest cruelty free shopping center in the world. It will also have the largest cruelty free makeup collection in the world. Its gonna be the bomb. When it takes off and becomes a massive chain, we will rule the world with our veggies.

Do not fear Boca Burger. Embrace it.

Journal 9/8/10

The first amendment is central to the media. Without the freedom to talk about all stories objectively, we become nothing more than a propagandist machine.

I personally would not be interested in filling the minds of the general public falsifications and lies about what really may have occurred in a situation.

Also, without our first amendment rights, it makes it really tough to get interviews cause they would all say similar things about "Our Great Leader".

We aren't in North Korea. Lets enjoy what we have.

Journal 9/3/10

The brain mechanics have shifted. The gears that once ground against the grain, in a vain false hope, now face the systematic reality. Though they are pieces that make the Great Machine function, they are exactly that, pieces. Parts can be replaced, and all can be made to function without those that hinder the efficiency of the Great Machine.

You do not know my mother and you do not know me.

This is a goodbye without blues.

Journal 9/1/10

Pictures are worth 1000 words a piece.

Look at that lovely victorian dream!

Journal 8/30/10

As President, I would eliminate all the ridiculous fools who dare defy the awesomeness of my power. Then, after crushing those idiots in Congress with my fearsome grip, I would transform this nation into the true empire it was destined for. Thats not to say that I wouldn't have some minor evils to eliminate along the way.

First to be killed: FOX NEWS.

Journal 8/26/10

My goals for the year are as follows:

- Find a way to get that elusive .5 PE Credit

- Run a half marathon in December

- Kick major butt in Broadcast

- Stay organized

- Get straight A's in all my classes

- Sleep. Sleep lots.

- GET A JOB!

- Relax

-Do lots and lots of awesome makeup

- Have a better, less miserable year, than last year. (With the exception of Bcast, sophomore year sucked.)

Journal Entry 5/25/10

If I were President of the United States....
Now see, everyone is probably expecting me to unravel some insane plan that would radically change life in the United States. To be honest though, most of my changes would be in uprooting the unconnected members of congress and weeding out the people that fueled by greed and private finances from companies with special interests. I would also really crack down on the general lack of concern for the environment. Honestly, people need to recognize that because we are human we have the power to shape the world and we should work to shape into a place that we want our children and our children's children to love. We should always do our best to make our policies and our choices for the benefit of the next generation, so that they might look back on us with a fondness and know that their parents and grandparents genuinely cared for them and wanted them to inherit a better a world. I just want things to be better. If I were President of the United States, I would work without tire to bring peace and happiness to all of the citizens of not just the United States, but the world. I would work without tire to show all the nations of this Earth that the United States has compassion for all of the people inhabiting this planet and desires to put its efforts in securing love and the pursuit of happiness for all people, but not in policing the world, rather in making larger humanitarian efforts than have been expected or seen in the governments of the past. I should hope that I could work to create a larger global peace for all people, and that the customs and traditions of new United States citizens would be properly respected as they join the nation, and that the plagues of hate, discrimination, and fear be erradicated from the way citizens live.

The government was designed by the people for the people. It should be the job of their leaders to place themselves after the nation in governing it, and it should be their job to no longer value the things that benefit themselves but to look towards doing whatever they can to make their nation greater.

Journal Entry 5/21/10

I have some really bright makeup today. In fact, it's so bright I'm sure they'll use my picture for that facebook group "Hey I like your makeup...NOT! It looks like you got gangbanged by crayola."
But you know what? I like all the color. Most people's makeup is so BORING. To be honest, I chose bright makeup today to keep the focus off of how entirely exhausted I am. I figure if I draw the attention to something else, then people won't notice that my eyes look insanely tired and that I've been yawning nonstop, and that I'm ready to drop.

I call the look "Summer Pastel With A Line."

Journal 5/19/10

If I could create a holiday it would be National Apples and Debate day. The day would feature bowls of apples EVERYWHERE. They would probably be honey crisp, since that's the best flavor, but, in areas where they cannot be found, other flavors may be substituted. The day would also be about intellectual discussion. Talking about major topic points in philosophy, politics, and the world in general would most definitely enlighten many people. It would also let people figure out who actually know what they're talking about and who is just being needlessly stupid and ignorant.

I think we should put this holiday on my birthday, July 28th.

Journal Entry 5/17/10

I am a cherry sno cone. I'm sweet and delicious, but I have a serious pop. My color shows really bright and up front so everybody sees it. I make myself heard. I don't really know what to say on how sno cones reflect my personality. Maybe I need like a combination sno cone?

So, seriously the best sno cone place in the world is in Gallipolis Ohio. Its the freaking bomb. Not to mention it's an old 50's diner with a jukebox that still plays the Chordette's song Lolipop.

Journal Entry 5/13/10

"Melt your headaches and call it home." -Ryan Ross of Panic! At The Disco
This quote perfectly describes me. I have had a lot of bad things going on lately in my life. I have just not been in a good place. I've been so stressed out and tired, and ready to quit on everything. However, for reasons unknown to me, I've been pushing through. I have necessarily been totally "there" while pushing through, but I've made it. I've been taking the pain and just living with it. I think it's important that I'm learning to deal, but I will say that I want it all to be over soon. At the very least, my life has gotten just a little bit better today. I took my AP World History exam this morning.

55 minutes: 70 questions, and 2 hours: 3 essays later, I feel like I can breathe.

Journal Entry 5/11/10

If today were my last day on earth, it is not a matter of what I would do, it is a matter of what I would not. I would definitely NOT be stressing out about the AP World History college board exam on thursday. I would not be working out a six hour study plan for myself on Wednesday night. I would sooo not be thinking of ways to cram facts about the Khmer Empire of Cambodia into my head, on the off chance that one of my three essay prompts is over Southeast Asia. I would most definitely not be losing sleep over the thoughts of West African Empire trade and the effects of the diffusion of Islam in relation to the Crusades.

Its really driving me insane. I feel like a Han Dynasty chinese scholar, whom spends their life studying, for harsh and unforgiving exams, in hopes of making it into the bureaucracy.

Journal Entry 5/7/10

So this whole week has definitely not been a break. I thought after TAKS nd everything that this week would be chill, especially since it was shorter by a whole day. Instead, my dad is still in the hospital, I've been studying until 1am every night, and getting back into my running schedule has been ridiculously difficult. I really just need a nap. Oh, and I've been fighting with a sexist boy at lunch about women's roles in society. I will NOT be restricted by some half-brained man who thinks because he's got something between his legs he is more intelligent or qualified than me. I've also been busy making the incoming debate student interviews schedule.

It's been a hectic week. I'm tired. I'm going to eat some mexican.

Journal Entry 5/5/10

If I could speak another language fluently, it would be Arabic. Arabic translators make so much money. It is an extremely difficult language to learn but highly rewarding if you can learn it. I could have a well paying job in somewhere like Dubai or even just in America, working for the government. It would be FABULOUS!

I want a good job really, really badly :/

Journal Entry 4/30/10

Sami's Survival Guide for Island Endangerment:
1. Using clay found in the dirt, mold a bowl formation.
2. Using flintstone, dried grass and wood, start a fire.
3. Heat the clay bowl and then place in the shade, so that it may harden for later us.
4. Scoop seawater out of the ocean and then boil it in the clay bowl so that the salt will leave and the water will be drinkable.
5. Create a hut out of sticks, leaves, and more clay.
6. Search Island for available fruits and berries. Feed them to someone else and wait a few hours to see if they are poisonous.
7. Use stones to kill small animal life for cooking.
8. If all else fails, resort to cannibalism in the event that there are other, less intelligent, people stranded on the island.

Journal Entry 4/26/10

Baby don't hurt me! Don't hurt me, no more!
What is love? That is the question. There is a song by NeverShoutNever that totally encompasses this prompt. (I'll leave the lyrics at the bottom).
Anywho, love is...Complications
Love is...nothing without Pain
Love is...everything I need, but often nothing I want
Love is...hope
Love is...a chemical reaction easily explainable by science, and yet undefinable.
Love is...the unselfish disregard for one's own needs or desires.

What is Love? By NeverShoutNever
In a sitch like this you've gotta think
And I don't think you think about the way he thinks
And I know you live life for yourself
But it all comes down to the way you help

And I know your life is such a hell
You wake up early and you work until
You have your drinks at 5 o'clock
The hours blend and your thoughts all
Haunt

Your hopes, your dreams, your everything
Well, momma I hope, I dream, that you won't
Leave

And I have a question!

What is love?
What is love?
Oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh
Is it giving up?
'Cause that's not how you raised me,
Yeah.

In a sitch like this you gotta think
And I don't think you think about the way
She thinks
And I know you work hard everyday
But it all comes down to the way you're
Paid

And I know you're oh so sorry dad
I truly believe that you're a better man
Than to share one kiss then give away
All the love you come home everyday

To your hopes, your dreams, your everything
Well daddy, I hope, I dream that she won't
Leave

And I have a question!

What is love?
What is love?
Oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh
Is it giving up?
'Cause that's not how you raised me.
And what is love?
What is love?
Oh, oh oh oh-oh-oh
See, I don't know anymore;

I used to look up to that love.

Journal Entry 4/22/10

I want the world record for longest lame dance off ever. The dance moves can only be those that would fall into the "lame" category (see Landgrab). I think this would be possibly one of the funnest and most entertaining records to attempt to get. It would be funny and people wouldn't get bored with it because it would not feel so repetitive.

Somebody please do this! OR I WILL!!!

Journal Entry 4/20/10

Well, lets get this straight first, I am no sidekick. However, due to this journal prompt I will concede.
I would most probably be Wonder Woman's sidekick. Not only would we have stylishly coordinated patriotic outfits, but we'd kick butt ALL OVER the world. It would be super bueno and we'd be representing the US. I could also use my superpowers to kick in Spencer Long's face. I'm sorry, but SEXISM WILL NOT FLY WITH ME. My "place" in the world, as a woman, is where ever I want it to be. I will NOT make you a sandwich, but if I'm told that again, I may dig you a grave.

Oh heads will roll. Wonder Woman and I against the world of sexism.

Journal Entry 4/16/10

So today I am so ready for sleep, it is unreal. Here's a good look at how my week has been.

Sunday: Film an entire 6 minute Spanish video about Pokemon with a crappy digital camera.
Monday: Work on AP World History project until midnight.
Tuesday: Edit Spanish video until 2:30am with Windows Moviemaker. Become frustrated and exhausted with having Moviemaker freeze 8 times, and the computer overheat and die, while publishing the final video.
Wednesday: Present Spanish video. Work on AP World History Project and Geometry optional retest assignment until 1am.
Thursday: Turn in AP World History project and Geometry assignment. Work on Debate Personal Narrative Speech until 2:30am. Proceed to then work on English project.
TODAY: Do speech in front of debate class and then try to get English Project done during debate class because it's due 3B.

My life has just been so exhausting this week. The one plus: I got my iPod back. I now love freshmen.

Journal Entry 4/14/10

I'm afraid life wouldn't exist without Apple. Honestly, we'd all be quite, very well, dead. It's funny that this is the topic of the blog today because I recently lost my iPod. I'm having a very difficult time surviving, and estimate that I'll be dead in about two weeks. I can't run without my iPod. I just can't. I don't know if there is just some sort of psychological thing with hearing myself breathing hard or what, but I cannot get my legs moving without music to move to. I've felt so crippled lately without my iPod. I can't listen to it when teachers are being ridiculously boring (for the record, learning about broadcast is never boring).

Surviving without Apple has become an imposibility for the human race, as proven by Sami Jay.

Journal Entry 4/12/10

"The wealthy man is the man who is much, not the one who has much."

I believe this quote is basically saying: You're better if you make something awesome of yourself than if you just simply have a bunch of awesome things.
I totally agree, its easy enough to buy something awesome or to own something awesome, but it's much more difficult and much more impressive if you actually are awesome. You have to work hard at it. You show real talent and desire that way.

Its worth so much more to be great than to have what is great.

Journal Entry 4/8/10

The most effective ad I have recently seen is a Dalworth Clean ad. They have this little jingle that goes with their ad and so now I totally know the entire phone number because they told it to me in a singsong way. I love it.

Call 267-8433
Cause the next best thing to do~ Is Dalworth Clean!

Journal Entry 4/6/10

If I could go to any concert it would Panic! At The Disco. Panic! is the best freaking band in freaking existence! I love them...with a fiery passion. I saw them for the first time in 2008 with my amazing sister and best friend, Lauren Seei, and it was so magical, so magical that nobody can even comprehend. I crowdsurfed and KNOW that Brendon Urie or Jon Walker saw me. Goodness I love them. I love Ryan Ross so much. So, so, so much. I would probably just take Lauren and my sister again, because they can truly appreciate the INTENSE love for Panic! that I have. I don't know if I am properly getting this across, just how much I love this band, but I hope it is clear. I LOVE THEM.

Innocence, sunk the glow and drowned in covers

Journal Entry 4/1/10

I love April Fools Day! The pranks are hilarious and everyone becomes just so lighthearted! It's entertaining, however it's difficult whenever something serious does ACTUALLY happen. You don't know whether to laugh or be concerned. For the most part though, this is one of the most fun holidays throughout the year.

I have yet to pull a prank though. I think my victim shall be my mama when I get home;)

Journal Entry 3/30/10

Of all the colors in the rainbow, I would most like to see in grey for the rest of my life. That way, it would be like watching a black and white film. I would also be able to see all people pretty much the same. I would have to judge more based on personality and less on how awesome someone's clothes look. It would be better at making life more even, but dramatically less interesting. However, I would absolutely LOVE feeling like I'm in constantly in a fifties film:)

I prefer seeing just like I do right now though. I like being able to see all colors.

Journal Entry 3/26/10

So today has been very good, except for one little thing. I totally planned on driving myself to school this morning but it totally did not happen. See, I wanted to attend the new Hollywood Movie club our school has, but my best friend, Lauren, wanted to drive me to school today. She was also coincidentally driving this boy that I like to school along with us. He totally knows that I like him, but doesn't do anything. He was quiet the whole ride. I don't know whether he likes me, hates me, is scared of me, feels nothing towards me, or just wants me to leave him alone! For the most part I try to stay leave him alone now because I know he feels that things are awkward, but I would really like a straightforward answer but where I stand. It's just not fair.

Love needs to be easier to deal with.

Journal Entry 3/24/10

Three major things I want to accomplish before I die:

1. Make a major difference in the world (a positive one!)

2. Fall in love

3. To be remembered

Journal Entry 3/22/10

The best part of my spring break was picking running back up. I never felt so good to get out and feel the burn in my lungs and the power in my legs! It was amazing Ms. Merrill. I felt so much better after I got back into swing. It sucked and was really tough at first but I got through it, and now it doesn't kill so much and makes me great. Running is really the greatest sport out of there. It's a sport of champions and diehards.

It is NOT for those who can't take a little pain.

Journal Entry 3/11/10

The theme song for my day today has got to be Kiss My Sass by Cobra Starship. It's pretty much the gnarliest thing in my headphones right now. It totally describes everything that has gone on today. In debate we are writing three minute speeches in seven minutes and then immediately after we write them we have to start speaking. It's tough, and for every awkward pause, "um", or use of bad transitions we get to hear a little bell ding, signaling that we just lost two points off of our grade. These are quiz grades and they are kicking everyone's butts. So I was kind of sassy about my speech today cause I'm tired of losing points, and the topics we're talking about need to have a certain agression when approached because it is persuasive speaking.

It's a sassy kinda day.

Journal Entry 3/9/10

My best memory from this year is probably isn't from just one single moment. I'd have to say it comes from debate though. See, in that class it's like we're a freaking legit family, not that it isn't like that in broadcast, but we eat lunches together and have to spend even more time together than just class time. We've played videogames together, and I am the best on the team at wii sports. The sad thing is that most of these people that I've grown to feel like my almost familly are graduating and this great set up we have will never be the same. I complain about debate all the time, but being with the people there has given me a lot. I've thought about things in a way I wouldn't have ever dreamed of, I've met some of the craziest people, I've heard some of the most insane stories, and I've laughed about some of the best inside jokes others will never know. Just a collection of the quirky and fun little moments we've all had together talking about weird opponents or biased judges, and poking fun at each other is what has really made a portion of my year.

The other portion comes from all the fun in broadcast:)

Journal Entry 3/5/10

So we went on a super awesome field trip today. I freaking loved it. Being at a real news station and seeing what really goes into made me see all the hard work but all fun involved too. It also got me thinking about our own broadcast and things that we could do to make it better. I wonder if we have to stay so involved in the school alone. It's just a suggestion that I am thinking of proposing, but maybe we could cover bigger new too? Even if it's just a reader. Just an idea, but I thought it might bring out how this is actually news, to the kids here that only want a broadcast for funnies.

Just a thought and, if we stick to copyright, we could get access to footage and make it work.

Journal Entry 3/2/10

Apples. I am downright addicted to apples. I eat apples everyday. I go into withdrawal without apples. I eat a minimum of eight apples per day and a maximum of however many more I can eat without getting a stomach ache. I have an obsession, but it's okay. I love apples. I eat an apple in the morning, one or two for a snack before lunch, one or two more with my lunch, two after school, and then two or three more after dinner, and finally possibly up to three as a before I retire to my wonderful bed.

Mind you, these are just averages. I can eat way more or way less depending on the day.

Journal Entry 2/26/10

Okay so today is a free write, so I'm about to go off on some things that have been really bugging me lately.
-First of all, RHTV "Varsity" is getting on my nerves. The term seems invented by them to feel superior rather than as a separator for the classes. It is elitist and makes no sense considering incoming freshman are in the class. I HATE it. We both air, and we both get watched by the entire school so there really isn't any difference between us in the sense of "Junior Varsity" versus "Varsity". We're the same in status. It is discriminatory without grounds for discrimination.
-Second of all, the "Things to Fix" note that they left seems somewhat arrogant. While the aim is to help us find things that are messed up with our broadcast, that's what critiques are for and it seems out of place for them to tell us how to run our broadcast. Unless of course, we have the option to leave similar notes back.
-Thirdly, certain persons have regularly informed me of said "Varsity" class's lack of desire for us to be in pictures with them, go on field trips with them, and whatnot. Look, we are not beneath them in any way and I want this to be properly expressed. I am not one who likes being put down and I feel as though we are regularly put down by the "Varsity", of whom I think I shall regularly be referring to as RHTV 1. Not because they are "Number 1" or anything, but because the members in there were a part of your first broadcast class, Mrs. Merrill.

I just don't like feeling like I'm being told that something I care about is second class. It's not fair and it's not right.

Journal Entry 2/24/10

Recently I have impacted Jen's life. She says that I make her laugh and smile in this class. Typically, I think it's probably because I open photobooth, pop in my headphones, and film myself mouthing the lyrics to songs. I think Jen really loves my jamming. I know it's quite enjoyable for myself, so I'm glad I could spread the joy over to another being.
Another life I have recently impacted is, my friend, Madeliene's. I have been her wingman for this boy, Chris, she is TOTALLY into. See, Maddie freaks out about this guy like middle school girl who calls and then hangs up. (She actually did do that.) So I have been helping allieviate her nerves and give her a tangible plan of action to get this boy to date her! I believe my work is quite ingenious.

Sami Jarrell...Life Impacter.

Journal Entry 2/22/10

Yes, I would love to be famous and have my life in the spotlight. Well, actually, I'd probably only enjoy when it works for me. See, it would be like giving something up. I should say that I'd be willing give up complete privacy in my life for the chance for other people to listen to me. It would suck, I would complain, and I would probably get really ticked at the media (which I am currently ironically a part of), but I would find it worth it so that I could get the word out about ideas and establishments that I think are important.

It's a trade off that I'd be willing to take.

Journal Entry 2/18/10

TODAY MY DRIVING RESTRICTIONS CAME OFF!! YAY!
This day will go down in history as a glorious occasion, one that marks freedom, independence, and the gifts of youth as they meet their rites of passage. Perhaps new burdens will come with this new found ability, but I believe that it's worth it. I believe that the responsibilities associated with receiving this gift of the open road are worth it. I believe that the roles now to be fulfilled as a result of this new opportunity to bring multiple members of society together under one convertible top are worth it. It's all completely worth it.

Today, I am an unrestrained warrior of the PT Cruiser.

Journal Entry 2/16/10

When I was a child I was set on being a veternarian. Like, I was CERTAIN that was what I was going to do. I had it planned to a "T". You see, I was going to go to college, become a vet, and then move to Tiger Island (yes it does exist!) and spend my days taking care of the tigers in the zoo there. They are renowned for their white tigers. It was my dream life. Now being around a bunch of giant cats for the rest of my life just seems kind of like a bad idea.

Tiger poop is probably even worse than the kitty litter I currently take care of.

Journal Entry 2/11/10

The weather has insane effects on my mood. You see, during the summer I'm a running beast. I get up nice and early, I run all around outside. However, during the winter all that goes away. I just don't feel like doing anything. It's so dreary and depressive outside, it doesn't make me want to do anything. So I don't run so much and during the winter I basically weight 8 pounds more than I do during the summer. It's all good though, cause I always look hot during the summer.

It just REALLY needs to warm up soon so I can start running again.

Journal Entry 2/9/10

Of all the things in the world right now, If I could change one, it would be people's attitudes towards those that are different. Particularly, the attitudes of many people towards those that are homosexual. We are all people and we all deserve respect and love. People should not have to live in fear for their lives or be tormented by people who don't understand.

It's just not right. It's fair. It's discrimination and nobody deserves to feel so alienated and hurt.

Journal Entry 2/5/10

So I was actually sick on this day when I should have gotten to write this blog. Allow me to tell about my sick person adventures:

While I was sick and dying on thursday, I woke up in the morning. I had not had anything to eat since dinner the night before and was feeling weak. I stumbled out of bed and made my way to my bathroom. In my bathroom, I looked at my deteriorated appearance and promptly passed out. During my fall to the bathroom tile, I accidentally knocked over my favorite makeup palette and some other makeup while simultaneously knocking my head against the counter, before knocking it on the floor. I awoke, scared and disoriented. I passed out five more times that day. I was suffering from severe dehydration.

It was not fun. I was terrified of going near the stairs for fear I'd pass out on them.

Journal Entry 2/3/10

Lets be honest here, I'm Sami, if I were a sea animal I'd obviously be a jellyfish. See, jellyfish are real fun to look at, and they put on a spectacular show, but lone behold if you should tick them off. Jellyfish stings can kill some people, while other people merely feel a small sting.

Jellyfish are a key member of the sea and one of the most amazing.

Journal Entry 2/1/10

If I could win any award it would be the Nobel Peace Prize. I would love to receive such an honor for working towards less pain, struggle, and fewer issues amongst the world's people. I would love it if we could all get along but that is a fantasy, however, that does not mean that we can't respect and love each other anyway. Peace should be something everybody works toward. Love is something everyone deserves.

I think that a Nobel Peace Prize stands alone as possibly the most prestigious prize in the world.

Journal Entry 1/28/10

Well, I disagree with our sub on the subject of the iPad. While the name sucks, I think it will be completely sustainable. The appeal of having something similar but more user interactive than a computer on the market available, will definitely appeal to consumers. However, the real swim or sink scenario will come around when Apple has to decide on a price. If it is too expensive than it will scare consumers off.

I know upon my first viewing, I really decided that I wanted it.

Journal Entry 1/26/09

Well, seeing as I cannot use phone apps because I have a regular phone unlike the fancy schmancy iPhones (that I am totally jealous of), I don't know much about phone apps. I guess if I could invent an ideal phone app, it would consist of showing me the coolest makeup looks and instructions to achieving them. I'm alright with makeup but having instructions always helps if you're a little confused on some part. OR the app could go back and for between the makeup thing and an update on the day's political activities of our nation's governing bodies. You never know when a state senator is going to be caught cheating on his wife.

I think the app would be pretty much amazing an my most frequently used. Actually, I think everybody would use it. EVERY DAY.

Journal Entry 1/22/10

I would totally name a tv show about my life "All Made-up".
I'd call it this because of my insane love for makeup, and because politicians tend to bs their way through a lot of their interviews or speeches. It seems appropriate to me because most people have either the image of Sami: The Politician or Sami: The Make-up Fiend. However, I imagine the show would encase more than just those two surface level images of me. I do actually do other things, I love running, I like baking Super Secret Sami Cookies, I am addicted to watching Bones, and dresses make me insanely happy.
I think a show about my life might get dull though because despite my passion for everything, when I go home I like to chill and just cool down.

Journal Entry 1/20/10

So the other day I used the vocab word "Proximity" while my mother and I were watching the news. There was a story about bikers and my mom, an avid runner like myself, didn't get the story. I told her, "Mom, it's all about proximity. It this story doesn't necessarily concern you, but it has everything to do with this whole group of people!"
To that my mother responded, "bikers just get in the way of real athletes."

Ah the wise exchange of words from the previous generation to the next.

Journal Entry 1/6/09

A dream house. That's an odd thing for me to describe. I'm not exactly architectually creative. But lets give this a go.

-White stone balcony over the entrance
-Red oak doors
-Entire house made of only grey stone (But it has to be light grey)
-Wood framed windows
-Old world themed structure
-Overhanging lamp structures made of iron that is painted black instead of ceiling lights
-Wood floors all downstairs
-Winding staircase reminiscent of a bad horror film
-Black roof with the shingles that edge the end of the roof curved sharply down towards the ground
-Stone gargoyles, nuff said
-Black gating around the entire structure
- Elaborate castle-inspired tops the the roofs
-Stone path leading up to the house and through the gates
-Just old looking. I love the old feel.

Its a nice thought:)

Journal Entry 1/4/10

So my goals for the new year are:

1. Meet ALL Deadlines
2. Have more fun
3. Make an A in AP World History
4. Go on a date (its been far too long)
5. Get back into running like I was in the summer
6. Fight the power
7. Become even better at makeup than ever before and find new looks I've never attempted
8. Figure out if vegetarianism is something I wish to follow
9. Take my love of dresses to the next level and find the cutest, most vintage inspired, dress in the world:)