Journal Entry 5/25/10

If I were President of the United States....
Now see, everyone is probably expecting me to unravel some insane plan that would radically change life in the United States. To be honest though, most of my changes would be in uprooting the unconnected members of congress and weeding out the people that fueled by greed and private finances from companies with special interests. I would also really crack down on the general lack of concern for the environment. Honestly, people need to recognize that because we are human we have the power to shape the world and we should work to shape into a place that we want our children and our children's children to love. We should always do our best to make our policies and our choices for the benefit of the next generation, so that they might look back on us with a fondness and know that their parents and grandparents genuinely cared for them and wanted them to inherit a better a world. I just want things to be better. If I were President of the United States, I would work without tire to bring peace and happiness to all of the citizens of not just the United States, but the world. I would work without tire to show all the nations of this Earth that the United States has compassion for all of the people inhabiting this planet and desires to put its efforts in securing love and the pursuit of happiness for all people, but not in policing the world, rather in making larger humanitarian efforts than have been expected or seen in the governments of the past. I should hope that I could work to create a larger global peace for all people, and that the customs and traditions of new United States citizens would be properly respected as they join the nation, and that the plagues of hate, discrimination, and fear be erradicated from the way citizens live.

The government was designed by the people for the people. It should be the job of their leaders to place themselves after the nation in governing it, and it should be their job to no longer value the things that benefit themselves but to look towards doing whatever they can to make their nation greater.

Journal Entry 5/21/10

I have some really bright makeup today. In fact, it's so bright I'm sure they'll use my picture for that facebook group "Hey I like your makeup...NOT! It looks like you got gangbanged by crayola."
But you know what? I like all the color. Most people's makeup is so BORING. To be honest, I chose bright makeup today to keep the focus off of how entirely exhausted I am. I figure if I draw the attention to something else, then people won't notice that my eyes look insanely tired and that I've been yawning nonstop, and that I'm ready to drop.

I call the look "Summer Pastel With A Line."

Journal 5/19/10

If I could create a holiday it would be National Apples and Debate day. The day would feature bowls of apples EVERYWHERE. They would probably be honey crisp, since that's the best flavor, but, in areas where they cannot be found, other flavors may be substituted. The day would also be about intellectual discussion. Talking about major topic points in philosophy, politics, and the world in general would most definitely enlighten many people. It would also let people figure out who actually know what they're talking about and who is just being needlessly stupid and ignorant.

I think we should put this holiday on my birthday, July 28th.

Journal Entry 5/17/10

I am a cherry sno cone. I'm sweet and delicious, but I have a serious pop. My color shows really bright and up front so everybody sees it. I make myself heard. I don't really know what to say on how sno cones reflect my personality. Maybe I need like a combination sno cone?

So, seriously the best sno cone place in the world is in Gallipolis Ohio. Its the freaking bomb. Not to mention it's an old 50's diner with a jukebox that still plays the Chordette's song Lolipop.

Journal Entry 5/13/10

"Melt your headaches and call it home." -Ryan Ross of Panic! At The Disco
This quote perfectly describes me. I have had a lot of bad things going on lately in my life. I have just not been in a good place. I've been so stressed out and tired, and ready to quit on everything. However, for reasons unknown to me, I've been pushing through. I have necessarily been totally "there" while pushing through, but I've made it. I've been taking the pain and just living with it. I think it's important that I'm learning to deal, but I will say that I want it all to be over soon. At the very least, my life has gotten just a little bit better today. I took my AP World History exam this morning.

55 minutes: 70 questions, and 2 hours: 3 essays later, I feel like I can breathe.

Journal Entry 5/11/10

If today were my last day on earth, it is not a matter of what I would do, it is a matter of what I would not. I would definitely NOT be stressing out about the AP World History college board exam on thursday. I would not be working out a six hour study plan for myself on Wednesday night. I would sooo not be thinking of ways to cram facts about the Khmer Empire of Cambodia into my head, on the off chance that one of my three essay prompts is over Southeast Asia. I would most definitely not be losing sleep over the thoughts of West African Empire trade and the effects of the diffusion of Islam in relation to the Crusades.

Its really driving me insane. I feel like a Han Dynasty chinese scholar, whom spends their life studying, for harsh and unforgiving exams, in hopes of making it into the bureaucracy.

Journal Entry 5/7/10

So this whole week has definitely not been a break. I thought after TAKS nd everything that this week would be chill, especially since it was shorter by a whole day. Instead, my dad is still in the hospital, I've been studying until 1am every night, and getting back into my running schedule has been ridiculously difficult. I really just need a nap. Oh, and I've been fighting with a sexist boy at lunch about women's roles in society. I will NOT be restricted by some half-brained man who thinks because he's got something between his legs he is more intelligent or qualified than me. I've also been busy making the incoming debate student interviews schedule.

It's been a hectic week. I'm tired. I'm going to eat some mexican.

Journal Entry 5/5/10

If I could speak another language fluently, it would be Arabic. Arabic translators make so much money. It is an extremely difficult language to learn but highly rewarding if you can learn it. I could have a well paying job in somewhere like Dubai or even just in America, working for the government. It would be FABULOUS!

I want a good job really, really badly :/