Journal 5/29/12

So today I got lost on my way to OHOP. The Original House of Pancakes is not nearly as good as IHOP. Also, I used a quarter of a tank of gas and almost ended up in Grapevine, Texas. Then my Health Science 3 class all went to the mall for like an hour and a half. I genuinely tried to buy something, but I am terrible at spending my money. I just don't like parting with my cold hard cash. I have one more blog of my high school career left. This is crazy.

Journal 5/21/12

The most important aspect of friendship is loyalty. So many many people these days are only friends to your face, or when it comes down to helping you out, they back out. There are too many fair weather friends. I'm not interested in that. Loyalty is what makes a friendship persevere.

Journal 5/24/12

I feel like this is a question that can't be answered with a simple yes or no. Yes, the media is highly intrusive in people's lives but some of those people have to realize what it means to be a public figure (see: Politicians). When one is a political figure they have to accept that their lives are going to pried into because they must be analyzed. People need to know who is running their towns, cities, states, and countries. So to some degree it is important that the media is so intrusive. When it comes to celebrities, it doesn't seem quite so fair. They aren't doing anything that says I should see how they live their lives. They're just writing music or acting in movies, they aren't in positions of extreme power. As members of the media we have a responsibility to report on things that are actually newsworthy. It shouldn't matter where Brad and Angelina took a vacation, but rather how our political candidates match up their ethical claims with their lifestyles.

Journal 5/15/12

When I experience a setback I take the April Joyner approach to my problems and personify them. Then I kill them. Setbacks tell their setback children scary stories about me before they go to sleep. I DESTROY SETBACKS. QUAKE WITH FEAR SETBACKS. QUAKE WITH FEAR.

Journal 5/11/12

Today I received a million messages from people asking me why RHTV wasn't on. So verdict: People complain about RHTV when it airs, and then complain about it when it doesn't air. PICK ONE. Ugh. It frustrates me how under appreciated we are most of the time. I'm not saying we need to be worshipped for our televised prowess, but not being jerks about all of our work would be nice.

Journal 5/9/12

I normally would jump at a blog like this. I love writing poems. However, right now my mind is more focused on speeches on the rights of individuals and biased unfair hierarchy, and awful teachers (not you). So here is a haiku I wrote awhile back about my life: I am really fat I am going to stop eating Wait are those cookies

Journal 5/7/12

The purpose of space exploration is the understanding of the universe. Science is the poetry of reality. It is so very very important to understand how small of a speck we are in relation to the entirety of the universe. I'll include a picture that will better explain just how numerous the vast number of other galaxies are and how far the universe stretches around us. In this image alone, taken by Hubble, there are around 10,000 or more galaxies.

I wish I was in London or Canada right now. It isn't that I particularly like either of those places but they both have two boys that I am IN LOVE with. I became friends with this dude from Canada, his name is Joshua, and if he wasn't in Canada I would date him like nobody's business. He is awesome and so freaking hilarious. In London, we have a filmmaker and musician by the name of Alex Day. He is also amazing and funny. He is internet famous though so my chances with him are significantly lowered. However, I will be internet famous some day or famous-famous because of my strong personality, and we will meet and fall in love. Unless I marry Joshua first. Is there such a thing as reverse polygamy? Like, a woman with multiple husbands???

Journal 5/1/12

The greatest advantage of cellphones, like most media devices, is their ability to provide instant communication. When you think about it, the cellphone stole many of its features from computers and radio. Really it isn't cellphones that people love, it is this transformer hybrid creature that has the functionality of a computer, the capability of an mp3 player, the fun of a game station, and the ability to make calls. On another note, DO NOT CUT PLANNED PARENTHOOD! IT WILL BE A STEP BACK IN WOMEN'S RIGHTS!

Slang becomes popular mostly due to the youth of America. When teenagers and kids come up with a saying or phrase, it spreads like wildfire. They are usually words that are supposed to phrase the same ideas. Like saying "Grody" for gross or saying that something is "Rank". These are kind of older phrases, but I really think YOLO is kind of stupid. I don't think I really use very many slang terms.

Journal 4/20/12

So today I went to telemetry for my hospital duties. I literally did nothing. No, I mean that. I sat in a chair and stared at a screen for two hours. TWO HOURS. Actually, I nodded off a few times, but going there was such a waste of my time. We looked at QRS complexes and whatnot, but it was the same stuff we look at in class anyways.

LAME. LAME. LAME. I can't deny that I was half hoping for a ventricular tachycardia or an agonal rhythm to spice up my time.

Journal 4/18/12

Facebook is going to become merged with the US Government, in that it will openly provide any personal information someone puts on there to the government. The people will be in outrage as their private lives become intruded, but ultimately do nothing about it. Then, once they are compliant, more of their rights will slowly and surely be removed from underneath their foolish little noses.

REPEAL THE PATRIOT ACT!~

Journal 4/16/12

My goal for today is to find my script for the show I'm in. I have nothing memorized and I can't find my script. I am in trouble. In other news, prom was pretty awesome. I had a good time. My dress and makeup were perfect. I loved them.

Sighhh, I miss prom.

Journal 4/10/12

Dear Rayne's armpit,

I know you are itchy and nasty, but it will be okay. Relief can come in many forms. You might try investing in some Dove deodorant or perhaps an anti-perspirant? There are some over-the-counter anti-perspirants that work exceedingly well. You might try Certain-Dri. It works great for keeping you from sweating in your pits for up to 72 hours after one nightly use. It can be pretty painful if you put too much on though. Be careful. Have caution.

I hope your itchy-ness gets better.

Journal 4/4/12

NBC5 did a very good job of covering the tornado. They provided many stats and figures about the length of time the tornado in Lancaster was on the ground (3o minutes), and the amount of damage. According to NBC5, 135 structures were damaged. Along the side of these numbers, they provided a human interest aspect via interviews with a church members that had their church destroyed, and a few regular civilian's tales of how they tried to hide. I did notice though that a few of the interviews were NOT RULE OF THIRDS.

It wasn't poorly put together overall.

Journal 4/2/12

My award would be the Endurance Award. It seems like I am always enduring some sort of trial or obstacle. Most of the time I just want curl up in a ball and lay in my bed all day, but some how I end up at school, getting crap done. Right now, I would describe myself as angry. I have been very angry with the world these past few days. Today is my dad's surgery, and on top of all of that I am going to be stuck at Collin Community College next year. It isn't right and it isn't fair. Anger is the word of my day. I have just been very angry at everyone and everything for: Existing, not understanding all the crap I have to do, existing, not letting me have five minutes alone, existing, not letting me have time to sleep, existing, and for EXISTING.

I want everyone to go away.

Journal 3/29/12

I have made myself proud by learning to accept and have a positive outlook on bad situations. I didn't receive the financial aide I thought I would from Texas State, and at the moment it does not look like I can afford to go. This has made my week not so fun. Also, my dad is going into surgery on the 2nd to have his rectum removed. This is a major surgery and he is nervous about it, but if all goes well, this might actually improve his quality of life in the end. He will no longer have that infected part inside of him causing him pain so that means he could stop being in pain all the time. Also, we have been working on getting him put on permanent disability because his doctor has said that he cannot work anymore, his body just can't do it. So maybe things suck right now and maybe things look tough, but they will get better because my dad can get healthier, and I can transfer from Collin College. Plus, my dad being on disability will make my FAFSA look even better come next year. Things can only get better after they've gotten so bad.

Journal 3/23/12

So I'm really tired and hungry. I want to go home and eat and sleep. Tonight I'm going to, you guessed it, The Hunger Games. Sleep hasn't been my friend lately. I just need a good long day to lay down and sleep. I'm so so so tired.

My dad goes into surgery on the 2nd. Then he'll be in the hospital for a while afterwards.

Journal 3/21/12

NOHTHING. I'm tired and people suck. Work is busy and customers have constant problems, school is busy and I am constantly playing catch up, and my house is busy because my dad is going back into the hospital on the 2nd.

The best thing in my life right now is my mom. She rocks cause she works so much more than the rest of the family.

Journal 3/19/12

The title of the book about my life would be "Revelations: A Story of Atheism and the Reflections of a 2012 Teen". I would title it this because just as being a person of faith is big part of lives of other people in this school, being without religion is an important part of my life. My book would be filled with my journey to getting this point, the stories of my life with my parents and siblings, and then the discussions of being a female in a political climate that seeks to control my sexual activity, body, and healthcare.

Journal 3/8/12

If I could go anywhere over spring break, I would go to the United Kingdom. So many great secular humanists come from the UK and the numbers of atheists there are growing by large margins every year. I could even potentially see Richard Dawkins! I would also have the opportunity to meet Alex Day or Charlie Mcdonnell. It would be the VERY BEST spring break ever.

So yeah. I want to find my people and be with them. It can be really uncomfortable living in the Bible Belt, where being an atheist is akin to be as awful as a terrorist.

Journal 3/6/12

Technically speaking, the biggest impact on America has been the Romans. You see, one could argue about the people discovering the nation as being the greatest impacters, but this is not the case. Simply discovering something does not actually impact or influence it. You see, while the Portuguese are credited with discovering the Americas, but it is the end result of what the nation became this is most important to turn one's attention to. The Roman Republic was the model for the final system of government in the United States, and it is also a model of governance for the Mexican government. The Romans founded the idea of sovereignty and giving more than just one all powerful individual supreme control over the way an entire nation of different background works. They are truly the founders of the United States and America.

I'm Sami Jarrell, roman-porting for R-H-T-V.

Journal 3/1/12

This week sucked, other than downloading LIMBO. That creepy little game has been my joy this week. When I'm stressed out, I play LIMBO. When I'm doing too much at once and need to stop to breathe, I take a LIMBO break. It is wonderful. It's also really enthralling. I love it. Other than that, everything has just been very hard this week. I am looking forward to babysitting tonight and relaxing a little bit.

Life is tough.

Journal 2/29/12

This goes back to history. We currently occupy the 38th parallel and support the democratic efforts of South Korea. If the enter into conflict with North Korea then we are obligated to help out with the South Koreans.

Also, there is the possibility that North Korea has obtained nuclear arms, which is just bad for everyone.

Journal 2/27/12

Learning to communicate effectively is integral to getting along in life. Telling others when something comes up or informing people of events is important. As reporters we fulfill the roles as society's communicators.

We have to speak and interact with one another on more than a surface level in order to understand one another.

Journal 2/23/12

The federal government could be most easily compared to a diaper. It needs to be changed often, and usually for the same reason: It gets pretty crappy. The problem is that people hold party loyalty rather than office loyalty. When you are given a government position, you do not do what your party tell you to do. You are to do as the constitution tells you to. If something follows the constitution and the people are for it, you get it passed. If something follows the constitution and the people are against it, you don't pass it. If something does not follow the constitution and the people are against it, don't pass it. Most importantly though, if something does not follow the constitution, despite however many people are for it, DO NOT PASS IT.

The spirit of the law is above the letter of the law, but we do not simply disregard the letter of the law.

Journal 2/21/2012

My favorite birthday memory is the one where I got to see Cobra Starship in concert for my 16th birthday. My mom called into KISS FM and won my sister and I two backstage passes and two tickets to the show. We got to meet all of the members of Cobra Starship, including the bands that weren't headlining. It was DA BOMB. Until an old lady attacked me (no lie) and started trying to scratch up my stomach in her psycho quest to the front of the mosh pit.

It was crazy good times.

Journal 2/16/12

Of all the things for people to fear in this world, like being in horrible accidents and getting severely injured with possible death, I am less afraid of those things than wasting my life. I have spent so much time around the dying, the sick and the injured, that the thought of having severe bodily damage occur to me is far less of a threat since before. However, if I could never live my life the way I want, and achieve my goals then that would be the most horrible terrifying thing that could happen to me.

On a side note, things I am afraid of: Spiders, Car accidents (I flinch when I drive sometimes), and empty buildings.

Journal 2/14/2012

Well from a legal and ethical aspect, yes. The state does have the power to regulate how we drive our vehicles because they travel on roads and highways, which are owned by the government. Also, the government is endowed with the moral obligation to do what is best for the people, which in this case would be to protect lives. Does this mean I want them to regulate texting and driving? Ha, no. I love texting at stoplights. Call me reckless, but I have the attention span of a teenager. Oh wait...

NO REGULATIONS POR FAVOR!

Journal 2/8/2012

I need to improve on my ability to know when enough is enough. I had a nervous breakdown on Wednesday and I felt erratic and anxious since then. I just keep trying to stop and just breathe for a few minutes. It will get better tonight now that I finally have a day off. I haven't slept more than 7 hours in last two days, and I was nearly late for school this morning because I woke up late. I have written 4 essays in the last two days at 3am. My health science class has been making me feel insanely pressured. My work schedule has been beating my back. I need to improve on my health habits. I am going to start letting my mind and body deteriorate.

I just feel so crazy that I almost want to just curl up in a ball and not go anywhere or see anyone. I want to just sleep for a million years and to sit in silence for the rest of my time.

I am stressed. I am tired. I am teetering along something bad. I need to improve my life quality.

Journal 2/2/2012

A benefit of advertising during the superbowl is that everyone will the advertisement. The same benefit can be a drawback though, if the ad sucks then everyone is going to laugh in your company's face. I suppose any press is good press though.

A bad commercial could even be so bad that it's funny and people love it and it goes viral.

Journal 2/2/2012

People have superstitions because superstitions are based on religion. People follow one or another religious belief system so believing in other things is not as difficult. I think it is all silly regardless.

I have no religious belief, therefor I don't put much stock into the world of the paranormal.

Journal1/31/11

Before today ends I would like to see myself getting an email from FAFSA telling me that the government is going to give me tons of grants. I need free money. I need lots of it. I would also love for the financial aide people of the various colleges I have applied at to get back to me.

Paying for college bites.

Journal 1/27/12

Today I am very hungry. I have been running so much more lately and I think all the extra exercise has been making me hungry. That or I am just a foodie. I'd place bets on the second one. I met a she-male today. At the hospital a man came in claiming to be a woman. This is because prior to receiving the operation that would change his gender, he is required to live exactly like a woman for one year.

It was all very very very strange.

1/25/12

My favorite rainy day memory is of me doing absolutely nothing but watching movies and wrapping myself up in blankets with my parents. We spend time together on bad weather days, and have also been known to bust out a board game or two. It's a fun time at the Jarrell household while everyone else lets the water ruin everything.

I love my house.

1/23/12

Well, the small act of me choosing to not eat McDonald's for the second time in two days for lunch, can have the greater impact of helping me try to get fit for prom. Prom is April 14th, and I will be rockin' hot for it. I am going to go running after school and dominate.

I don't know who my date will be, but he will be very impressed.

Journal 1/19/12

The internet bills are a bad decision, and I am sure almost everyone agrees that they are at this point. They claim to promote the protection of copyright, but they take it way too far. This would result in far too much censorship of everything, down to the pictures one posts on Facebook. It is ridiculous.

They won't get passed.

Journal 1/17/12

The best advice I've ever received is actually a quote by Paris Hilton, believe it or not. She said something along the lines of: Tell everybody what they want to hear, but in the end do what you want with your life. It is very good advice. Most people wouldn't realize it because she is made into a dumb ditzy cartoon character.

She hasn't actually even accepted money from her parents since she was 18. She is a very capable woman.

Journal 1/10/12 (Day I was sick)

Are there biases in the media? Are there fish in the ocean? Of course! You cannot turn on the news without finding some sort of bias. The BEST example for biases in the media is naturally FOX News. Have you ever heard of a new station covering stories about itself? Well FOX News does. They get upset when people criticize their biased practices and then do stories about themselves being criticized. It is ridiculous! They also try to talk about the "mainstream media" as though they are not part of that media. I call bull. They make up a large, and rather sickeningly sad, part of the "mainstream media".

Journal 1/12/12

The biggest problem in our society is bigotry. People are not willing to understand and accept other for their differences or lifestyles. They persist in restricting the freedoms or abilities of others based on something as trivial as who the person prefers to date. It is ridiculous.

People need to accept others and move on with life.

Journal 1/7/12

Today has been the best day ever. I had a nurse at the hospital that was actually interested in helping me help her. I got real patient interaction, and assisted with triage, and was able to help with a chest pain. Then, I got to swing by my job and look all cool in my scrubs before going to Racetrack where I had a Dr. Pepper ICEE and got hit on by the cashier, whom was very impressed with my being a hospital person. Now I've gone by McDonalds to get french fries after interviewing for the Biggest Loser story (irony, I know), and managed to make my boss happy by actually using the gift card he got me.

Tonight I will see The Devil Inside and eat more good food after I go for a jog. Life is so good right now.

1/4/12

The thing I like most about myself is my ambition. There is so much I want to do with my life and so little time to do it. I spend so much time trying to figure out how I'll get it all done before I kick the bucket.

At least I have goals though. I could be some goal-less fool wondering about with no purpose to my life.

Journal 1/2/12

My theory on the Mayan Calendar deal is that there is no theory. It is a calendar. Like all calendars it has an end. Do you know what calendars do when they end? THEY START OVER!
If the end of the calendar meant the end of the world then the world would end each year, or maybe each month, depending on your calendar.

People. People. People. IT IS A FREAKING CALENDAR.