Journal 12/16/11

Today at the hospital I held down a small child as she screamed and cried, and kicked. She was not very happy with discovering she needed two shots because she had pneumonia. This is why people should get their children vaccinated, so I don't get nearly kicked in the teeth.

I am NOT going into pediatrics.

Journal 12/14/11

I am going to eat a candy cane and lie to career booths at the CTE Center to make my day better. I have already been accepted to college, so it seemed really pointless to be at the Career Fair thing with all of the colleges trying to sell their schools to me while I've already been accepted. I was actually really disappointed in the TWU booth because I have been accepted to their school and when I told them that, they just stared at me. Seriously, if I told you I have been accepted to your school the least you could do is try to make me excited about it and ask about my interests and whatnot. Don't just tell me to do my scholarship by March and have a nice day.

So. Dumb. But my candy cane and new pen in the shape of a syringe is fantastic.

Journal 12/12/11

If I could be any car I would be my PT Cruiser. I love that car. I don't desire any other car. If I could be my car, it would just complete my love for it. It is convertible and black and beautiful. It's name is in fact, Black Beauty.

I love my car.

Journal 12/06/11

If I could be anywhere right now it would be broadcast. Oh! Look at that! Dreams do come true!

I love myself.

Journal 12/02/11

So I still haven't quite come to grips with the death of Ehsan. He was in my third period class with his girlfriend, and I just keep finding myself staring at his seat. It's like this whole thing was just some unfortunate thing that happened to him, but we'll see him again on Monday. It's all so surreal. Everything is just so weird. School feels weird. Work feels weird. Doing anything feels alien when I think about Ehsan and how he can't do any of that anymore.

For the entire history of the world, people have lived and they have died. You would think we would know how to handle it by now.

Journal 11/28/11

My favorite performing artist would have to be Lady Gaga. As far as performances go, she puts on a real show. This doesn't make her my favorite artist musically, but she makes her concerts into real experiences for the audience. If I could go back in time I would say that Panic! At The Disco are the best performing artists, because their Nothing Rhymes with Circus tour was THE BOMB. I didn't get to go, but I watched all the youtube videos from every performance. EVERY. PERFORMANCE. It was intense and satirical and there were acrobats and dancers and drum battles AND IT WAS AMAZING.

Gahhh, I love Panic! At The Disco.

Journal 11/17/11

My college would be called the Jay University of Arts, Science, and Thought. We would offer courses focusing on performing arts; such as theater, dance, and debate (because public speaking is an art in itself). We would have two sub schools inside our science department, the Scott School of Medicine, and the Joanne School of Biology. Finally, in the Thought Department there would be the Amanda School of Political Science and the Wyatt School of Philosophy.

We would of course be considered a liberal arts school because we would be so small, so as to be more selective, but we would strive to produce students that receive jobs in the first 6 months after graduation 99 percent of the time.

11/9/11

When a person is loyal they will do something unquestioningly. They will trust your intentions and just do something because they know you. However, this can backfire because someone who was once trustworthy could ask a loyal friend to do something that is wrong on a legal or moral level.

It is something you have to be very careful with.

Journal 11/7/11

I don't think there is any day or night I would like to relive over and over and over and over again.

I think I would get very tired of doing the same thing repeatedly, with the same people.

I suppose if I had to choose one day, it would be the day I became The Megabeast.

Journal 11/3/11

Well, considering I wrote this journal topic, my perfect school year would be the following:
- Sports domination
- Straight A's all year long on my report cards
- Megabeast status the entire year
- Deadlines met EVERY broadcast by EVERYONE
- Have a super awesome boyfriend on my arm. You know, to take me to lunch and stuff.
- Eating yummy food all year
- Running almost everyday after school
- EARLY RELEASE EVERYDAY!!

So yeah. My most important of these though is the deadlines thing. Life would be so much easier if we all met deadlines.

Journal 11/1/11

Existing- To achieve the basic needs of existence, as food or shelter
Living- To be active or thriving

The difference, I think, comes in whether or not you're enjoying yourself. It is probably an easy concept for those of us in the United States and other western countries, but it is far more difficult for people in third world countries to see the difference. For them living and existing are exactly the same thing. They are just happy to be alive whereas we live to be happy.

Journal 10/28/11

So I really wanted to come to school as the scariest zombie anyone has ever seen ever, or you, Ms. Merrill. Except I didn't have time to because I was at freaking Health Science 3. It made me really frustrated cause I wanted to join in the costume contest and win. I'm amazing with makeup and this was a great chance for me to show off those skills in real time instead of just having pictures.

Sigh. Class conflicts suck.

Journal 10/26/11

I think it is a personal thing to turn to greed and selfishness. Some people are pre-disposed to just WANT WANT WANT. Whereas other don't care or don't desire quite as much. It could very well be all about the balance of chemicals inside the brain. Did you know that due to a lack of the proper hormones, some people literally cannot feel love? They can forge connections and understandings with people but never the all encompassing rapturous feeling of love.

Pretty crazy, huh?

Journal 10/24/11

One pice of advice I would give to the world would be for everyone to try and be more accepting of others. People often try to apply the customs of their culture onto others. A group of people half a world away are not going to feel the same way about things as your 1st world nation does.

Seriously.

Journal10/20/11

I don't really feel like I relate most to any television character. Television character's lives are larger than life. Hence why we don't really relate. My life is real. Their's is larger than reality. It sounds a little silly but I am my own person, and I try think very logically about situations which is why I don't relate well with television characters. They don't apply logic to their lives and end up in stupid situations.

For instance in horror films, go out the back door NOT UP THE STAIRS!

Journal 10/18/11

If I could change one thing about Frisco it would the be the fact that our policies are always changing. In the beginning of my high school education we had the drop grade, then we had professional ethics and a week to turn your homework in, and now we have nothing. How do they expect us to follow any of the policy changes to the full of their expectations if they change every year? We are given no time to adjust to anything on a regular basis.

It's annoying.

10/14/11

It is pretty obvious where most people will stand on this issue. They will be against the professor and for the boy. Personally, I feel the same. However, I feel it important to mention the other side. The professor was likely not attempting to discriminate against the boy but keep the class from being disrupted. If every time the boy speaks the class loses focus, then it can be understood why he might ask the boy to not speak in class. He did not say that he would not answer the boy's questions but he wants to maintain a studious atmosphere in his class. Teachers will ask other disruptive students to stop speaking, when they do not have speech impediments, if they are disruptive.

While I believe the boy should be allowed to ask questions, I do not believe the professor was trying to do anything wrong.

Journal 10/12/11

Well, being that I am a 68 year old woman, currently my biggest challenge is my ex daughter. I say ex because she put me in a nursing home. Her own flesh and blood! She is no longer any daughter of mine.

I am giving all her inheritance to her brother!

Journal 9/29/11

I would change the lack of tolerance in this world. People feel the need to be special and important, and to have that "us against the world" vibe. I am an atheist. Just because I do not believe in God does not mean that I do not believe in treating other with respect and love.

I don't hate religion, but sometimes I feel like religion hates me.

Journal 9/23/11

So I am totally jazzed that Ashley is here and Hannah is coming soon. I am SO JAZZED. SO SO SO SO SO JAZZED. I am about to jump out of my skin from freaking happy joyness. I am thrilled. I am excited. I am going to scream when Hannah comes in.

I CANNOT WAIT!

Journal 9/21/11

Red is the color that would describe me right now. I finally got paid and I bought brand new red lipstick. I also bought liquid latex, gel blood, and black lipstick. I made myself into a zombie last night. I've been working on an album on facebook called Halloween Makeup Works 2011. It so far has featured Frankenstein's Bride, a cut down my eye, and the zombie takeover of the world.

Pictures to be posted soon.

Journal 9/15/11

As a serial texter while driving, I think the ordinance will make the roads a lot safer. I tend to swerve, not realize the light has changed, and nearly get myself into an accident when I text while driving. I should really stop. It started off kinda small, just innocent glances when I had a text, and now it has grown into a bit of a problem. I'm going to text-hab.

The sad part is that I used to totally get onto one of my friends for texting while driving. HYPOCRITE MEEE!

Journal 9/19/11

My best pick-me-up when I'm feeling down is some QuickTrip Coffee, Panic! At The Disco, and french fries. Seriously. French fries make everything in the world SO SO SO much better. They up the de-stressing factor by like 20. The coffee helps with the likely fatigue I'd be experience whilst feeling low. Panic! At The Disco is my favorite band so they just make everything better regardless of the situation.

I love food.

Journal 9/13

Freedom is everything that America represents. It is the difference between being open minded and being closed. We openly allow criticism of ourselves, there are few other nations that would allow open criticism of it's government.

We have a leader, but he is no more powerful than an ordinary citizen. We have a government, but it is no more powerful than it's people. We run ourselves.

Journal 9/9/11

My favorite piece of technology is my itouch. It would be a little cooler if it were an iphone, but then people would be able to bother me while I'm running, which is my time away from everyone else. I love my itouch. I can play music, I can listen to Richard Dawkin's lectures, and I can watch the Rachel Maddow Show. Steve Jobs is a genius. I love him.

We're getting married next fall.

Journal 9/2/11

So this week has been very stressful. I am dead tired. In fact, I fell asleep at 7pm the other night with all my clothes and makeup still on, and then I didn't wake up until 6:32am. I thought it was 8:32am and I almost had a heart attack.

I have been in the broadcast room at like 7am most mornings this week, regardless if it is my day. Blahh. I am tired.

Journal 8/31/11

If I could have any talent it would be photographic memory. That way, all subjects in school would immediately be ten times easier and I could ace any test. I would also be more proficient in foreign language.

Photographic memory also means that you can nag anybody for forgetting stuff, because they will know for sure that you remember that they forgot.

Journal 8/29/11

10 years from now I see myself having finished college and working as a foreign relations correspondent for MSNBC. I will be working somewhere probably where rebellions and other sort of dangerous activity are taking place. I might get hurt. However, it will all be just the adventure I have been looking for mixed with utilizing the language studies I would like to do.

I am going to become fluent in a foreign language for sure.

Journal 8/25/11

The information provided to us by the news is insanely important. The news reports major events that are occurring and effect all of our lives. The main reason to care about what is going on in the news is because it is really what is going on with yourself. In a way, the news is kind of like a little ego boost because it is all about you!

Though, it is really an ego boost for the reporters because they decide what is most important to cover.

Journal 5/27/11

So this is the last journal of the year. It's been a pretty rad time, not gonna lie. Next year is going to be so strange with our seniors gone. It will be time to step up and fulfill the leadership roles that they have left behind, and to bring the same impressive work to our own broadcasts that they have helped us bring to this year's broadcasts. I hope that in some ways RHTV remains the same in the successes that these seniors have brought us, but in others I hope it changes so that we may make our own mark in this class next year and leave something behind for the years after ourselves.

Looking forward to next year: Sami Jarrell blogging off.

Journal 5/20/11

Today my boyfriend and I have our anniversary. It has been approximately one month since we started dating and I am so happy. I have never held onto a boy for a month. I always break it off jussttt before one month is actually reached. I lose interest, or I find too many issues with who I'm dating. It is my fatal dating flaw. HOWEVER, Christopher Chung is a different story. He is super crazy awesome amazing.

So I've been giving him these weird notes with one word written on them all week. The words have been:
1. Supersonic
2. Cosmic
3. Different DNA

Today is the day he'll understand what they all mean. When we hang out tonight I am giving him one of the alien guys from his favorite movie, Toy Story. You know, those little guys from the crane machines? Yeah. And a note that says:
"Boy, you're an alien" -Katy Perry
Along with a drawing. It's pretty rad.

Journal 5/18/11

I think this will only impact his political life for a brief period. People forget if you give enough time. There are plenty of other political figures that have had scandals as bad if not worse.
As for his private life, I just hope his wife is forgiving. She stood up for him during his running for Governor, when he was accused of sexual harassment by campaign workers, and fought hard to remove any doubts about his character.

I suppose, at least he eventually confessed instead of it just being something that someone else found out and released everywhere.

Journal 5/12/11

My perfect day would be a day where everything is 50s themed. I would be on an old fashioned date with my boyfriend and I would be dressed as a cute 1950s girl. We would get milkshakes and fries and go to a drive-in movie. It would be adorable. We would also go to the zoo.

So dream day = dream date.

Journal 5/10/11

It all depends. Do I get to stay the same age or am I going to become a saggy old hag? If I still look as good as I do now, we've got no problems. If I'm going to just be insanely wrinkly and unable to really do much, forget it.

And I mean, if everyone lived then there would be nothing to hold over other people as a way of keeping order in the world.

Journal 5/6/11

I believe that space travel is an amazing thing. The further we explore the Universe, the more we can understand about our own planet. Not to mention the discovery of aliens someday would be phenomenal. The Universe is too big for us to be the only consciously thinking beings out there.

ALIENS ARE COMING.

Journal 5/4/11

Well, considering I was watching a movie when I first heard that Bin Laden had died, I was irritated. Now it's all fine and dandy that he's been killed, but it has been 10 years and quite frankly, I was trying to watch African Cats. I realize this sounds insensitive but so does screaming about how happy your are another human being is dead. We are brought up as children that two wrongs don't make a right, and that revenge is wrong. Yet we seek it as an entire nation and rejoice at the very thing that made us weep; death.

I just feel it is most beneficial and preferable to be apathetic to the entire situation.

Journal 4/29/11

I need to go running. I have not been running since Tuesday and it is killing me. I am like about to collapse due to lack of running. It sucks.

Blah.

Journal 4/20/11

Well, it isn't actually about what you believe. According to a study done at Syracuse University, it actually takes 1/5th of a second to fall in love. Therefor, love really is at first sight. It's just like when people make snap judgements about one another.

Love really isn't something that takes much time after all.

Journal 4/18/20

Currently, the most influential person in the world is Rebecca Black. Never have I seen someone get so many people to kick it in the front seat or sit in the back seat. Particularly, making so many people get down on a single day. In quoting John Lennon "We're more popular than Jesus".

She can make everyone join together and sing on a single day. See a parallel?

Journal 4/14/11

I impacted my ex boyfriend's life recently by breaking up with him. It was for the best though. We don't mix well with each other, as much as we would both like to. Then, I've impacted this new guy by accepting a date this Saturday with him, and totally falling for him. He is everything I wanted in my last relationship and more.

I actually met this new guy during my last relationship and that probably sped up the inevitable breakup by a few days. THIS GUY IS AMAZING THOUGH.

Journal 4/12/11

Well, think of it terms of sports. Who would make a better coach, one that is loved or one that is feared? Fear is a powerful motivator. I think I'd work harder at whatever skill set we're focusing on for a sport, under the threat of 20 suicides.

Simply put, this is a battle between "You can do it!" and "You BETTER do it!"

Journal 4/8/11

So my week has been really hectic. My boyfriend owes money and got in a fight with his dad, my dad is sick, and my cat is dead. Seriously. What else can go wrong?
I'm so over everything. I just want to hang out, watch netflix, and kiss my boyfriend.

Can I just breathe for like five minutes? K thnx.

Journal 4/6/11

Sodas should be sold in schools because schools are supposed to uphold individual rights. One of those individual rights happens to be the right to choose what one wishes to consume. It is my body and if I want to fill it with aspartame, well that is my prerogative.

GIVE ME SODA OR GIVE ME DEATH.

Journal 4/4/11

Well, cloning is counterintuitive. The idea is to recreate the same exact individual, but that is an impossibility because the clone would not have all the exact same memories or experiences as the person the clone is based off of. The personalities would differ and therefore cloning, in the truest sense of the word, is impossible.

I totally like the idea of cloning organs though, because that could save billions of lives.

Journal 3/31/11

The tv shows we watch effect the way we talk and act. Fist pumping didn't become such a trend until Jersey Shore, and people said the word "fierce" for a little while after Christian Siriano of Project Runway made it his catchphrase.
Getting addicted to a show also effects my real life because I'll put other things aside to go and take an hour to watch Bones. I learn a lot of interesting anatomy facts from that show though.

Tv can have good and bad effects, but I mean, it's just tv.

Journal 3/29/11

I prefer city life because I love having events and things always going on. I need stimulation! Sitting about idly is alright for a few days, but after about a week of the redundant slow lifestyle of the country, I get bored.

I need a mall, lights, and some serious civilization.

Journal 3/25/11

So let me tell you a little story.
My freshman year, I was nervous and a little scared of upperclassmen. One day, I came to school one day with rainbow socks and moccasins on. As I was leaving the school for the buses, a boy suddenly turned away from his friends and said to me "HEY! We have the same shoes on!"
I smiled, happy to talk to somebody, until he followed up with "Mine are cooler."
Realizing that I had my rainbow socks on, I opened my mouth to rebuttle with a comment about my awesome socks but was cuttoff at "Well I have on-" by the boy raising his hand, turning away from me and saying "I don't care."
I was totally deadpanned. He had totally just blown me off. I stopped wearing those shoes and those socks to school after that day.

Guess which boy asked me to prom on Wednesday?

Journal 3/24/11

If any fictional place could be real, I would want for it to be the place in Panic! At The Disco's music video for The Ballad of Mona Lisa. It is very steampunk and crazy, but I absolutely love the way everyone dresses.

All the references that video has are beautiful and tragic.

Journal 3/21/3

I completely agree with the quote. You must always look ahead. If you don't look ahead, then your "now" will eventually suck. A lot. I get that you shouldn't waste time constantly worrying about the future, but you certainly have to give it consideration.

It's like the grasshopper and the ant story.

Jounral 3/8/11

If I were a Wisconsin teacher, I would suck it up and take a drop in pay. I would protest the bill being passed, but I wouldn't allow for schools to get shut down. It isn't right or fair to the students the teachers are supposed to be committed to.

This thing is getting ridiculous.

Journal 3/4/11

Okay so I am running on an hour of sleep, a vanilla cupcake cappuccino, and a diet coke. I have had so much caffeine that I'm getting a headache and I'm shaking, just a bit. The good news is that I got my AP Lang project complete and have made it thus far into my day. The bad news is that I think I am showing early symptoms of strep throat, a virus I typically contract at least once a year.

I promise not to lick anyone.

Journal 2/18/11

So let me explain what occurred on Wednesday.
I had a mental/emotional breakdown. I like completely freaked out.
I have been so crazy stressed with everything in my life that I just lost it. I completely lost it.
I was crying and falling apart in the counselor's office during lunch. It was terrible.
One of my classes (not RHTV) has caused me unfair amounts of stress and terror, to the point of anxiety and nervousness.
My job has also caused me to feel like I am not good enough and has made me constantly worry that my fellow employees are saying things about me behind my back.
Not to mention my slipping grades.
Or my not sleeping at all lately.
I just haven't had much good in my life lately.

Journal 2/16/11

This is easy. I would invest the money into a growing small business and then convince the owner to give me a large share for being one of their angels. Then, the money brought in by the business's success would be MY money, and I could use that to buy whatever I want, and it would likely make it's way to over a million dollars so I wouldn't lose any profit.

Just got think your way outta situations like these :)

Journal 2/14/11

So I really want to like Valentine's Day. I really can't though. I have had no luck with having a significant other during this holiday, and therefore, it bites.
I really hate feeling like I'm left out of the big crazy love fest. Walking into Algebra 2 and seeing a girl's desk covered with GIANT balloons, a box of chocolate hearts, perfume wrapped in a cute pink and red present box, and an ENORMOUS TEDDY BEAR.
It does not help the self-esteem of us one woman wolf packs.

Most alienating holiday ever. Like. Seriously.

Journal 1/31/11

I love it that everyone is coming to Texas for the Superbowl. I don't particularly care about the event itself, but I have work on Sunday from 10-6 and Sundays usually suck cause people like to do all of their grocery shopping for the week on those days, however since it will be Superbowl Sunday, I am expecting less of a crowd because people are more likely to be getting themselves some fatty food at Walmart than buying italian squash at Sprouts.

EASY MONEY!!

Journal 1/25/11

If I could give advice to any celebrity, it would be Oprah Winfrey. She is also giving everybody advice and I am sure it would be nice for her to be on the other end so somebody could give her life a little perspective. She deserves a little help too!

Then I can get to work on freaking Lindsey Lohan.

Journal 1/21/11

Well, it is funny that this blog is about how others describe us, because I found out last night that I have a hater.
According to this girl, whose name shall remain nameless, I am a "stuck up hypocritical b*tch, who is also really stupid".

I am flattered that I have haters, it means that I'm successful, but I do not like having nasty things said about me.

Journal 1/19/11

Something currently being over-covered in the news is the "political climate". Everyone is freaking out about how negative politics has apparently turned. Politics has always been negative. Yes there was an assassination attempt and massacre in Tucson, but there have been other assassinations in history. If one were to look back in time they would find that American politics have always been scary and mudslinging.
In the election of 1800, John Addams was accused of being a monarchist, which is kind of a low blow since the Revolution had just occurred and he played a large role in it's success.

Politics are dirty. I'm not saying tragedy isn't something we should shrug off of our shoulders, but wackos are going to be out there no matter how hard we attempt to "play nice".

Journal 1/5/11

So a bunch of birdies fell, and in another place a ton of fish died. Some articles are suggesting that the only evidence is trauma found in the breast tissue of the birds. This leads me to conclude that the firework theory is fairly accurate. Assuming the birds were flying in close groups above the location of the fireworks going off, and if the explosions covered enough airspace, that could lead to thousands of bird deaths.

Baby, you're a firework.

Journal 1/3/11

People are bad at keeping New Year's resolutions because they lack determination and the mental power to put in the real effort. You can't just say that you're going to do something and then down your glass of 2011 champagne. You have to actually apply yourself and get to the grind. Achieving goals isn't supposed to be easy or fun, but it is usually worth it.

People just need to be more like me. They need to be awesome.